Hopless in love?

I met a guy a couple of years ago and we talked and really liked eachother, then it turned out to be something more.....I reolized that I loved him when i woke up in the morning and felt that warm feeling and found myself smiling just because I though of his name.....and i hate my smile...He is not what normal people whould call attractive, but I love him for WHO he is, faults and all....I was on cloud nine all day.....Theres just one problem...I live in texas and he lives in Matusates....long distance relationships normally dont work and I know It wouldent work because it would kill me to here his voice but not be NEAR him no im not just infatuated, i have had boyfriends before, I attmitted to him that i liked him a little and he returned my feelings,but thats all I said..just that i LIKED HIM..scared to say l-word..Now a couple of months later he met and is now dating one fof his friends,she sound like a sweet girl and i WANTto be happy for him BUT HES KILLING ME!!!! i need advice